How are you doing?

    i didnt even know there was something called a quarter life crisis, but i suppose i have that sort of thing right now. the whole philosophical thing comes up alot. i have changed my perception on death, which occupies my mind alot (no idea why), to some weird reanimation cycle resembling tabula rasa. i am not depressed though, i just have these weird/bad/black thoughts.

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    i didnt even know there was something called a quarter life crisis, but i suppose i have that sort of thing right now. the whole philosophical thing comes up alot. i have changed my perception on death, which occupies my mind alot (no idea why), to some weird reanimation cycle resembling tabula rasa. i am not depressed though, i just have these weird/bad/black thoughts.

    i hear you man, same here dude.. life and death goes through my head every day, just like that... this video made me happy, bill hicks is a fucking hero:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BTzNLhxPzjo

    What everyone else said - amazing thread - I think we've had one of those before looooong time ago, anyway, another one was way overdue and I just read through it in one sitting.

    Really interesting to hear the stories behind the nicknames, sad sometimes (D3 I'm sending a PM your way, we'll get you back in shape, trust me ) but also funny (Hessi :"My advice: shit on the girl, focus on university." - classic! ). I love some of the details too and demonstratively give Tay a wink

    I think most people have seen the thread in GID, so I won't bore you with more details about my life, but the mentioning of this "quarter life crisis" struck me too. I didn't even know something like this existed, but believe that it's something everybody needs to go through, maybe for most people on a smaller scale.

    For each person comes the day, when you need to get off the rails your parents put you on and find your own way. For some of us this happens when you drop out of school at an age of 16 and for others it happens during the mid-, late-twenties when graduating from university. Or when you think "hey, maybe this isn't exactly what I want to do from now on and for the rest of my life", "maybe there is more out there", but that also bares the risk of always thinking that there is something or somebody better to find.

    I've been going through something like this the past 6-12 months, where I needed to re-prioritize certain fundamental aspects of my lifestyle in terms of personal value: work, money, free time. What's more or most important? I don't know! But I think I made a good decision to unlock myself some more options, for the times when I think that certain aspects need more dedication than others, so I can shift priorities.

    I still find myself torn between yuppi friends and a liberal way of thinking though and still don't exactly know what I want to be in 10-15 years. Talking to your parents has proven to be quite helpful to me, they have been through this themselves before after all and one thing I learnt from them is that you can't plan or foresee everything. Don't be careless but do what makes you happy and what seems like the best choice for you. Everything else will come when it's time

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    Because times starting to go past really fast now, and the realisation our best years are going to be over soon has hit us.

    I beg to differ, the best times are yet to come, remember that, lifes got a tendence of suprizing

    yeah FrieChamp, i totally agree..

    heres the story behind Clayman

    Some of you know the band InFlames, they made an album titled Clayman, with Davincis vitruvian man on the cover..

    Back in school i was the kid everyone could fuck with, i took alot of shit for some time.. so i isolated myself and listened to hard rock untill my parents thought i was crazy.. i started painting seriouslly, all kinds of drawings, alot of them where sick so i throwed them away, felt like everything i wanted to come out of my heart ended up on those drawings..

    Davinci talked about precision and research and mathematics. i took that serious. In flames sang about "the man made of clay", the pissed of person that does not exist, thats how i looked at it to.

    Its all about perfection, and how i basiclly started beleving in it, because there is a universal law, the problem is we havent figured it out yet, and thats why we ignore it just like we ignored the first person to say that the world is round and not flat.. perfection dude cant get more perfect than that

    I basiclly became a complicated person and that is that.

    read the lyrics of the song clayman here http://%7boption%7d

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    I still find myself torn between yuppi friends and a liberal way of thinking though and still don't exactly know what I want to be in 10-15 years. Talking to your parents has proven to be quite helpful to me, they have been through this themselves before after all and one thing I learnt from them is that you can't plan or foresee everything. Don't be careless but do what makes you happy and what seems like the best choice for you. Everything else will come when it's time Smile

    amen on that champ

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    She then started by saying that I COULD stick with the two subjects, but only if I come into school everyday. Two lessons also means larger gaps of wait time, and possibly days without lessons, or only 1. I'm expected to stay in school for several hours until the day ends. It was like this the previous year which depressed me causing me to just go home during those free hours - much more convenient.

    I had a similar problem at school, Quakis. In my sixth year I had quite a few gaps in my schedule (not full days or anything, but quite a few double hour gaps) and I'd often either not bother turning up for registration (if the gaps were before my first class) or I'd go home during the breaks if no-one else was around. I ended up getting threatened with being kicked out of sixth year; talk about a pain in the neck!

    Is there no way to take more subjects or perhaps some lower subjects to flesh out your timetable? I ended up taking intermediate chemistry & games and sport as extras. I didn't actually give a shit about either of them (I possibly even failed them) but it gave me something to do instead of sitting around being bored. My main focus was CSYS computing which I did very well on. Actually, come to think of it, my whole sixth year was a waste of time other than CSYS computing...

    Well, I got my weekly lesson timetable today, and I only have 1 free time a day since that Travel & Tourism takes up quite a bit of blocks. Again not a subject I wanted but I'll see how it goes...

    In Flames were good once, but having seen them live at Wacken recently I honestly think they should call it a day!

    I'm going to the job centre tomorrow to sign on again, it's not a case of wanting to, it's a case of needing to else I can't pay my rent..

    Got a lot of content done for my project lately though, starting to shape up quite well, and hopefully you should be seeing a lot more of my work in the coming months.

    Interesting topic to see on Mapcore! Good idea skdr:)

    Personally my life has changed quite a lot over the last year including new city to live in, new job, new girlfriend, lots of new hobbies, etc.

    Back in high school my life was pretty much just school and Sands of War. Leading a mod after school was quite a time demanding which left me in a constantly stressed state with no time to do anything else.

    After high school I took several months off just to relax and play games and generally do nothing. That time felt really needed for me, when I look back on it it was some incredible boring and dull months though where everyone else moved on except for me.

    Finally I got a job and what a job! My dreamjob as level designer at IOI:) Was quite a change to go from doing nothing to having to move and start at a new job within 14 days.

    The time after moving was quite annoying, I spent all my energy at work so I was wasted when I got home. Furthermore I had no internet for a month which obviously also sucked ass. In addition to this I had very few friends over here so I did not really have anyone to hang out with.

    Since then things has just become better and better:) I have begun to use my newfound sparetime to do all kinds of things that I enjoy but never had time for. I have been taking karate lessons for a good half year now and I really enjoy those.

    I have been with my current girlfriend for around 3 months and we still love eachother most of the time. A downside is that she lives some hours away by train, so for the most time we only see each other in the weekends.

    After this last weekend I have been kinda confused about my love life though. Thing is that I was at a party where I met a nice girl who I kinda ended up together with. We both had strong feelings for eachother, but as I had a girlfriend we just could not take it all the way, it was quite ackward really. So now I would actually really like to go further with this girl, but then again arises the problem that I have a girl already.

    very interesting thread. It's amazing how similar everyone thinks we are to each other because of the common interests that brought us to mapcore, but we are all so different (and similar) in the other aspects of our lives.

    My career has really slowed down in the last couple years, and a new direction feels like it has been a long time coming. My passions no longer line up with my job. I am not satisfied at all with work, so I am constantly creating things in my spare time. A friend of mine from work has gotten really interested with me on one of the projects and we have been spending a lot of time working on it. I have been considering stopping working and spending at least a year to try to build something I am passionate about and to try to make my own way for myself. I think it would make me a much happier person.

    Outside of work or games stuff, things are pretty good. I have picked up tennis recently and have been playing a lot with friends. I was dating for a little while, and while it didn't end up amounting to much, it was good to reassure me that it's still an option when I feel like getting around to it. I have been reading more, and I'm going on a cruise with my family at the end of the month which I am really looking forward to.

    are there more mapcorians out there that press the reply button, wanting to say so much, but then stop because he's afraid of what the others will think of him?

    Or is that just me?

    Well I'm doing fine thanks for asking...

    This summer I traveled a lot, Istanbul, Sofia, Belgrade, San Francisco, Seattle, Alaska.

    I worked with a sculptor in California on a 3d visualization of his work for the Beijing 08 Olympics. I have also been involved on a 3d sculpture project, where we print out rapid prototype models, and then they will sent to China to be carved at a much larger scale out of granite. It is funded by Autodesk and will travel around the major art museums in China. Also working with 3d with Kenneth Snelson, a well known artist here in NYC.

    Been working on my 3d film animation, which will be my main showcase of my work for Graduate schools that I will be applying too in December.

    http://jonathanmonaghan.com/archives/69

    Been with a girl this summer and now she is away at school, so I figured that ship had sailed, but she still wants to be with me so hey cool... Girls are frustrating sometimes, but you learn a lot about yourself with them I guess.. sex is fun too

    Also continuing to do web design and such...

    School is going well.. 3.7 gpa...

    Im turning 21 in a week, so I can now go out and drink in America...

    On the downside, my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer recently.. she lost her hair, but the chemo and such should take care of the cancer for now. The next couple of months will be hard, as chemo makes you very sick and tired all the time.

    So back to work, its great catching up on mapcore.. I remember when everyone was so childish on IRC and dreaming of working for major game studios and now everybody is still childish, but are actually making a living making games so cheers yall

    care to elaborate on your travels? thats a whole lot of places to go at your age. good luck with your mom, my grandma had breast cancer ~10 years ago and she got through it amazingly.

    My dad was diagnosed with thyroids cancer when I was a toddler. The doctors told him and my mom he would have 2 years left to live and that they should be glad about that. He kept fighting and won. The next 8 years the cancer came back 2 more times, but he never thought about giving up. For the past ~10 years he has been a healthy man.

    It was a tough time for my whole family and I wish yours and especially your mom the best. If it helps you - the chances to cure breast cancer are pretty good nowadays and I heard the older the woman is, the less the cancer grows.

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