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D3ads, regarding you being attacked:Take some self-defence classes or take up a martial art. It'll do you wonders. A lot of the classes feature people like you and me (a bit nerdish, not really fighting types, wouldn't know what to do if attacked). Think about it: Are you more or less likely to take up a martial art if you're already confident about defending yourself? I've been going to a local instructor for approaching four years now (he teaches hand to hand combat to the special forces amongst other stuff) and I know I can handle myself these days because I know various things for every angle of attack etc. I'll never be a hard bastard or a great martial artist, but I now have a good understanding of what I can and cannot do and plenty of stuff in my locker for both recognising & dealing with various situations, including someone with a weapon.

Also, if you find the right class and instructor, it will also do wonders for your self-esteem, get you fighting fit and teach you a lot about life in general. Just make sure you find a good instructor; avoid the cowboys (one touch of death!111 I will throw you with my Ki power!) & sport-based martial arts.

If I can do it, it's almost guaranteed that you can, too. I've been trying to get my brother to take it up too as he was almost assaulted a few months back but he's wary of the effort involved. Once you're in and training it's grand, you just have to have the confidence to take that first step. Personally, it was something I always wanted to do but never got around to. Once I started, I was so glad that I actually took the first step. Definitely one of the best decisions I ever made.

The reason I think this is a good route is that you can overcome your fears through confidence in your own abilities. When I started uni prior to starting training, I used to wonder if I was going to get mugged when wandering through the overpass to the train station late at night (almost happened once when two dickheads started asking me for money then started following me while abusing me). Nowadays I'm still careful to avoid trouble, but I'm much less worried about anything happening.

If you're ever interested or want any advice on choosing an instructor etc. just shoot me a pm sometime.

Thanks for the advice, it would help to have self-defence classes I'm not so sure about martial arts though as I'm not really that interested in it and it's a bit of a thing to have to learn that sorta stuff to defend yourself from fucking idiots who get their fun from beating people up. I think had I been sober that night I might have been a bit more assertive but I'd had a bit to drink and was feeling tired so I didn't fight back. I fucking hate people who invade my personal space, if someone gets up right close to me and grabs me or something I will not tolerate that and I'd be perfectly prepared to fight back as well as bite and/or scratch any fuckers that try to pin me down.. or even gouge their eyes out.. I have no sympahy for anyone who attacks me, leave me alone and I'll leave them alone I want no part in their so called entertainment of beating people up.

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my advice: shit on the girl, focus on university. throw your self into work and get something out of you. when you are 30 years old, got a nice job, a nice apartment, money, a car you will surely find lots of girls. there like 3 Mrd. around the world, so one might fit to you cheers!

Thing is Hessi, it doesn't work like that for everyone, some people are able to move on easy, others like myself find it very hard to look to other pastures. When you have feelings for someone, you want to be with them not anyone else, sure you can look for someone else and maybe get somewhere with them but if you go out with someone when your feelings lie with someone else then you'll be miserable because you want to be with the other person. It's all subjective but that's my 2$..

seir: I can relate to your dilemma, having been through a similar situation myself for the last year, I don't really know what to suggest other than try and spend more time with your friends (you must have some.. surely?!) or perhaps family? Take your mind off of it by pushing yourself to work a bit more, I'm not saying force yourself to map or anything.. just do a bit more towards your work and build it up step by step, it wont distract you from your sorrows completely but it will help to take your mind off of things for a few hours at a time. I guess it helps if you spend as little time with this person as you can but if she goes to the same sort of places you goto that can be extremely difficult.. again I can relate to that annoyance! Getting out and about on your bike should relax you more as well

good post section_8! UML was kind of boring at uni for me, but maybe you get more into it because you work on a project while we only had a single semester with small exercises. operating systems is a cool course! i had it last semester and it was really interesting to get the basics of a modern operating system (no i am of course not talking of windows based systems!). learned a lot about process synchronization and file management.

i once worked on a flash based application in the old fashion way. highly procedural fucked up code. though AS seems to be a bit shitty for debugging, but it is a powerful tool once you got into it. this semester i have to work out an application of my choice and maybe i will make a small kids game. technologies are yet to be decided, but flash would be in consideration (besides Ogre which is maybe too complex, but we will see )

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good post section_8! UML was kind of boring at uni for me, but maybe you get more into it because you work on a project while we only had a single semester with small exercises. operating systems is a cool course! i had it last semester and it was really interesting to get the basics of a modern operating system (no i am of course not talking of windows based systems!). learned a lot about process synchronization and file management. i once worked on a flash based application in the old fashion way. highly procedural fucked up code. though AS seems to be a bit shitty for debugging, but it is a powerful tool once you got into it. this semester i have to work out an application of my choice and maybe i will make a small kids game. technologies are yet to be decided, but flash would be in consideration (besides Ogre which is maybe too complex, but we will see )

The great thing about AS3.0 is that it's incredibly Object-Oriented and Event-Driven. It was just weird for me having used AS2 for around four years, then giving AS3 a go and and wondering why the old hacks no longer worked.

The Pong game I wrote is very procedural and not very OO, but thats the great thing about flash and AS3. You can hack together some quick code to get the job done or you can make it OO and very efficient. Small kids games are great to do in flash if they're not graphically intensive. Heck, it's why I used flash for my Pong clone. I figured I could do it quick in flash to help myself understand the functionality of the game and how the game logic and everything works without having to focus on specific implementations of API's or memory management. Now that I have an understanding of the game logic, I can port it to C++ and OpenGL or something to take that next step.

BTW, this thread is awesome. It's great to attach a greater sense of personality to all this text. I love reading everyone's stories. Really reinforces the feeling that I'm not alone anymore

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ok here we go.. right now working at grin, im 20 years old, so far ive had 2 nervous breakdowns, i have insomnia and dont get much sleep, writing a book, started smoking again, dont talk much to people, dont hang out with anyone, i just go home after work and write and paint shit...

I feel crazy sometimes, because all i do is paint and paint, i just think to much about everything, and the more you think you've solved something the more you realize you havent solved shit but rather the contrary..

no matter what, im trying to stay cool and focused, and most of all; positive.

but hey, life's just a ride ive come to realize, nothing really matters, fuck it all, what matters is what you have left inside of your self

One of these days I will turn my back on everything and move back to the place where i was born, where i really feel i belong. Im going to move there maybe in 20-30 years and never return. Just live a life without stress and all those things that i have to deal with that really isnt healthy for me, also, before i go insane..

thats me.. cheers

I'm similar to you clayman, expect I've only had 1 breakdown. My answer, prescription drugs and pot.

haha been there, done that but thats not me... it feels like my nature is "want something done, do it your self", that kind of attitude. I mean, im at work constantlly and trying to "work it all off", but the more i do it, the more i se that really doesnt help, and my back is fucked up..

So... ive started meditating, thats no mumbo jumbo, trust me.. I get so relaxed before sleep its amazing.. but still, every morning i try to find reasons why to be happy, and ive found some.. i work on a kickass company with cool people, and i love what i do, i also had to work my ass of to manage. Im happy i guess, ive acomplished something many people cant even spell to. so, yeah positive thinking is a wounder

Sounds like Grin is the place to be for screw cases like us

I should apply again

I think i had similar problems when i was in my early 20's and i know that a lot more people have. Could be a Quarter-life crisis. http://%7boption%7d

When i was 22-24 i was often depressed, had problems with social relationships, did lots of alcohol and drugs. I also was thinking too much about the world like philosophical problems especialy which drived me crazy.

The last 3-4 years i feel a lot more stable, didnt had depression and i stopped to think too much about everything. Also i'm only a moderate alcohol drinker nowadays and dont do drugs except pot sometimes. Guess my Quarter-life crisis is over.

Hows your ass btw stepp?

My ass is fine. Thanks for asking.

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I think i had similar problems when i was in my early 20's and i know that a lot more people have. Could be a Quarter-life crisis. http://%7boption%7dWhen i was 22-24 i was often depressed, had problems with social relationships, did lots of alcohol and drugs. I also was thinking too much about the world like philosophical problems especialy which drived me crazy.

The last 3-4 years i feel a lot more stable, didnt had depression and i stopped to think too much about everything. Also i'm only a moderate alcohol drinker nowadays and dont do drugs except pot sometimes. Guess my Quarter-life crisis is over.

hehe I know what you mean, I was unconciously driving myself into that lifestyle a while ago. I had just finished school, lost contact with my friends (aka lost all my social life), didn't manage to get the US visa (americans hate the latin americans ), failed to get accepted at uni and some other shit. And then I met my GF and everything is fine now. I just hope she won't break up with me, otherwise I'll probably try to destroy myself again

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From the sounds of it, a lot of people here are around the quarter-life crisis stage. I think mine ended a week ago

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Today I had to see the head of 6th form about what to do in my final year. Well, I dropped Applied Science so that left me with Media Studies and Applied ICT. I can't have two lessons since 2 A Levels won't help me getting into Uni (which I've yet to decide on)

She then started by saying that I COULD stick with the two subjects, but only if I come into school everyday. Two lessons also means larger gaps of wait time, and possibly days without lessons, or only 1. I'm expected to stay in school for several hours until the day ends. It was like this the previous year which depressed me causing me to just go home during those free hours - much more convenient.

She then said I am being stubborn about the choices, since I'm not motivated to work with other subjects beside those two. I won't even try. And she said she recommends I do 3. The final option is I won't be able to come back.

A) If I don't go back, then I'll be nagged at by my parents to find work. It's not easy to find work, especially in this town - and I could get a group of people to prove that point but my parents don't get it.

B) She said I should take up, Travel and Tourism (with the lower year) which I didn't want. But what other choice do I have? It's not like I have to do anything since I never wanted it. I just agreed since I had enough of her fussing. I could "try" it for a few weeks and get back to her.

So another year of school, and parents that nag at me to find part time work. Another unmotivating year of crap. This is going to be fun.

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Wow...

I'm doing just fine, trying to explore the world as much as I can before graduating. After I finish my master's thesis I intend to study a semester abroad in New Zealand I think, then work abroad for a 3-6 month internship period, hopefully in Singapore or a similar location, then study some Spanish in Puerto Rico or Costa Rica for a few months. After that I'll see what happens.

So, never really seen this thread before now, I like it.

My life have actually been all good ever since I graduated from highschool (Norways answer to that) in June. I've found myself a girlfriend, I've almost finished my driving lessons, I've been skating a lot and right now I'm just working with my dad earning some money so that I can travel before I hit the army for 10 months in January.

After the army I'll maybe try to get into a game dev. og graphic design school, if not, I'll try to get a job somewhere