What's going on with your life?

    I live in a bubble and just found out there has been a new mass shooting in USA, in Las Vegas.

    im surprised there are no topics on the subject – although there’s not much to say really. Las Vegas is not a city relevant to our industry but felt wrong not to acknowledge what happened.

    I hate to say it but I think we're starting to become a bit desensitised to the horrific terrorism that's been happening. I mean literally in the last week or so I have read of:

    1. Mass shooting in Vegas
    2. Attempted car bombing in Paris
    3. Attempted bomb on London tube
    4. Two young (~20) women killed with knife in France

    And you know what? It almost feels like just another month. Sometimes its more intense — like the mass shooting at the beach resort a couple of years ago — and sometimes it's vehicles running several people down. But it has become almost relentless. Every day I open Apple News on my phone and expect to read about another sick incident ISIS is claiming responsibility for, even though it's only actually them some of the time.

    What more can I say? It's a messed-up world right now.

    ...

    On a more personal note, I'm in the midst of moving for the first time in a few years. Things are going well with my girlfriend so we're looking at moving in together, although initially it'll just be me in an apartment we've decided on and then she'll follow a few months later. That's all great, but equally exciting is I'm getting to live in a really nice block I've had my eye on for a few years but couldn't get things to line up right. I've always enjoyed living high up, and my current flat is pretty crappy in that regard — my view is essentially a wall. So this new one is 11th floor, great panoramic views, and it's all new and modern. I can't wait to have a year or few there before finally setting down into a more practical house.

    Of course, moving is an absolute pain in the ass. There's so much to take care of and a lot of money to spend, and adding to the pressure is my letting agent doing short-notice viewings of my current flat. But I've borrowed some cash to get through the crunch and it should all even out. It's just so crazy having to pay for 2x rent (both flats during the move), agent fees, deposit which is at least equal to the rent, moving truck, new utilities, etc. God day-um.

    Girlfriend was in Las Vegas in the street near the hotel 3 hours before the shooting. A guy hit on her at a bar who was going to the country festival that evening. Selfishly, that feels a bit too close for comfort.

    EDIT: Still didn't finish renovating my apartment because it's been a crazy year and I've almost not been around. Dating an amazing, creative woman who lives in the US and makes me happy. Started the year with joining an indie venture that collapsed a few months later when a couple artists left during the crunch for an important demo. Been in the US twice, first ever for me. Traveling a bunch. Rode up to San Jose and San Francisco for business and meeting my new team. Working on the tech side of creating interactive fictions using chatbots and simulated characters. Life is exciting, been a pretty intense year full of ups and downs, but mostly ups, and I'm eager to see what comes next. I'm going to work in New York for two months soon, then be back for christmas and intend on finishing my long-due renovations in January. Only the unfinished shower prevents me from living there.

    Started a new job this week. I'm now a IT Infrastructure and Data manager for a £40m Medical Imaging Facility. Massive information overload every day, They have Geiger–Müller tubes on the wall to detect radioactive patients and can mention 'halflifes' without getting all teary eyed..

    Winging it surprisingly well considering everyone there has multiple PHDs and I have a highscore in PacMan.

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    6 hours ago, Vaya said: Winging it surprisingly well considering everyone there has multiple PHDs and I have a highscore in PacMan.

    Laughed more than I'm willing to admit at this.

    Sometimes you find comfort in the strangest things.

    After leaving all social-media to avoid this woman, and getting into trouble with my so called friends, i felt pretty bummed and down. I have no problems being alone but last weeks were awful. Since the end of August i have only spoken to one friend, the last one i got now. Making new friends as a grown-up is hard.

    Anyhow, my brother bought me Destiny 2 for Xbox One. Maybe he felt bad being invited to a thing with all our friends when i was not invited. I was really fucking down and sad. Destiny 2, looks stupid.

    Fuck it, i installed it and bingo. Hooked. It was something i needed to keep my head up. Thank you Bungie and thank you my bro. Now i can grind for gear and finish Nightfalls in a fireteam instead of sitting alone feeling sorry for myself. Much much needed, i recommend Destiny 2 and if you want to join a clan of two idiots, one drunk gamer and an indian coder that yells most of the time. Gimme a shout!

    I went back to social media some days ago. Noticed that the woman from my thread, has gotten married now (officially). Weird, 6 months ago she told me she was single.

    You guys were right all along, i know. I felt gutted finding out but at the same time, good. Knowing she lied all along kind of helped to finally let it go. I guess it was something i needed to know to stop hoping.

    I am a dreamer and i feel stupid having hoped for change so long, but as my history with women shows, im either one unlucky bastard or humans are assholes by nature :)

    So, this will be the last of this, and im sorry for bothering you on this gaming-forum. Thank you for all the support, i will try to learn how to listen to it better.

    End of saga.

    So I finally did it.

    I resigned a week after coming back from Canada and last Monday I moved in with my girlfriend.

    It was risky to move without having the safety of a new job, but I decided to go for it to force myself to do better.

    I hope I can soon find at least an easy job with set routine, 9-5 or the likes - eg admin, just so I have free time to spend developing game dev skills, which I wasn’t managing with my random shifts. In theory that was getting better, as I got promoted to Manager position and we were finally sorting the staff, but that could have changed in a snap and the whole long distance was just stressful. It’s been too long and need to see if we really work as a couple, can only do that by sharing a place.

    Per aspera ad astra!

    Well Im broke AF now , No job , No Money, No girlfriend in a country where Suicide rate is highest in the world, Alchoholism as well somewhere in top 5, Thanks god Im having where to stay, No suicide thoughts yet(I hope I will never have them), Dont use alchohol as well :) , Im still positive because whats left from here? Only to climb up :)


    Ahh yeah I forgot, Goverment decided to make painkilers as a prescribed drugs too :D

    I finally landed that job I wanted. Or a ~13 month mat. leave position anyway. Really happy to be back in a structure daily life. Can't complain much.

    Also met a nice woman. Shes smart and cool, doesn't seem like anyone Tisky would fall for so I think I'm safe.

    Hey gang. Just got back from my honeymoon in New Zealand. Loved it. 3 weeks of fast-paced bliss and adventuring. A lot of nature photos taken for source materials and I feel rejuvenated to tackle 3D projects again. :D

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    On 2017-12-04 at 6:52 PM, Sigma said: Hey gang. Just got back from my honeymoon in New Zealand. Loved it. 3 weeks of fast-paced bliss and adventuring. A lot of nature photos taken for source materials and I feel rejuvenated to tackle 3D projects again. :D

    Awesome, I will go to New Zealand somwhere in my lifespan for sure

    I've started a new job Tuesday.

    Junior Technical Project Manager in the web department a publishing company.

    Hopefully this means I won't have to clean a room or wash plates ever again... but I'm very bummed by the commute. Had to buy a car, which I was trying to avoid, and it's not 50 min like Google was saying, but 1h 20m. Tiring, "dangerous" and costy. Since I'm still getting contacted by agencies for jobs will definitely stay on the look out.

    I also got in contact with a game developer and designing a logo for his game engine.

    Been isolated from friends and females for months. Kinda like it. Gonna go to the dentist for the first time in 10 years next week (even tho i cant afford it).

    Car broke down again. I havent stayed positive like this Forever and Im afraid Im positive because Deep down i know Im fucked.

    I wish i could hit reset.

    Quote from Tisky

    1 hour ago, Tisky said: Been isolated from friends and females for months. Kinda like it. Gonna go to the dentist for the first time in 10 years next week (even tho i cant afford it).

    Car broke down again. I havent stayed positive like this Forever and Im afraid Im positive because Deep down i know Im fucked.

    I wish i could hit reset.

    You can, today.

    May I recommend a book?https://www.audible.com/pd/Science-Tec…book/B0797YBP7N

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