Quote from dux50 minutes ago, dux said: Fighting off a lot of stress at the moment. Feels like bit of a losing battle sometimes. Everything comes in waves, typical
You can handle it man, don't worry. Try and find little things to do that help you relax, even if you have to force those moments. Otherwise just get it off your chest and post it here or in a pm. I always felt that talking about feelings is a bit pussy, but it does help, especially when you're stressed out.
Quote from dux1 hour ago, dux said: Fighting off a lot of stress at the moment. Feels like bit of a losing battle sometimes. Everything comes in waves, typical
Gym it up bro. You got this.
Bit of a mixed bag of emotions today. On a positive note, got the keys to our new house (renting still for another year or so then gonna buy), on the other hand, my mom had a mini stroke. So err, that wasn't fun. My dad didn't tell me because he didn't want us to worry on our big day...
She's fine now but gotta be on drugs for the rest of her life to thin her blood etc. Scary stuff.
Makes me realise that my parents are getting older and won't be around forever. That shit terrifies me.
Sucks to hear bro hope you doin ok.
Quote from PogoP3 hours ago, PogoP said: Bit of a mixed bag of emotions today. On a positive note, got the keys to our new house (renting still for another year or so then gonna buy), on the other hand, my mom had a mini stroke. So err, that wasn't fun. My dad didn't tell me because he didn't want us to worry on our big day...
She's fine now but gotta be on drugs for the rest of her life to thin her blood etc. Scary stuff.
Makes me realise that my parents are getting older and won't be around forever. That shit terrifies me.
About 6 years ago, I lost my grandfather to a stroke, and a year after that my grandmother had a stroke so big she can barely walk and she's unable to speak. Strokes are horrible man, glad it was a small one, i have an aunt that had a small one about a year ago and she completely changed her life around, she's doing yoga, exercising, eating healthy and whenever I go back home, she's happier now than i ever remenber seeing her during my childhood.
With blood thiners, healthy diet, exercise and positive thinking she can live a long healthy life.
Best of lucks, hang in there man.
Currently trying to broaden my competence as a level designer.
Growing really tired of having ideas and not be able to create them.
It always feel that there are crucial materials, models or assets that are missing.
Therefore I am currently picking up 3DS max to learn how to model my own assets and Substance Designer to create my own materials.
As I think Bastion here on mapcore said "A real level designer can model".
That got me going.
Quote from GRiNETDisplay More6 hours ago, GRiNET said: Currently trying to broaden my competence as a level designer.
Growing really tired of having ideas and not be able to create them.
It always feel that there are crucial materials, models or assets that are missing.
Therefore I am currently picking up 3DS max to learn how to model my own assets and Substance Designer to create my own materials.
As I think Bastion here on mapcore said "A real level designer can model".
That got me going.
A real LD can model, but if you really wanna specialize in LD, careful with spending too much time in substance. Maybe your time is better spent modeling/blocking out levels, then diving into the world of materials, specially with such a niche program like Substance. If you're starting out, there's more than plenty materials out there, textures.com, megascans, even designer I'm sure has libraries of stuff you can use in your levels.
My 2 cents! 
Quote from GRiNETDisplay More7 hours ago, GRiNET said: Currently trying to broaden my competence as a level designer.
Growing really tired of having ideas and not be able to create them.
It always feel that there are crucial materials, models or assets that are missing.
Therefore I am currently picking up 3DS max to learn how to model my own assets and Substance Designer to create my own materials.
As I think Bastion here on mapcore said "A real level designer can model".
That got me going.
You're going the wrong way imo, not saying that being able to create your own stuff is a bad thing, but it's a mistake to think you're not able to make a map because you don't have the right texture or the right model.
Imo a good LD use what he has on stock, limitation breed creativity.
Quote from marble5 minutes ago, marble said: found my excuse for being too lazy to learn modelling
Actually i've never said it was bad to be able to create your own models, of course it's better. A LD who can model is a more interesting profile but I was just saying that you don't have to model to make a good map.
Starting work a week from now and the one vital item I need is my passport, can't work without it.
Surprise surprise, it's gone missing.
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Quote from Bastion18 hours ago, Bastion said: Starting work a week from now and the one vital item I need is my passport, can't work without it.
Surprise surprise, it's gone missing.
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Nightmare over, I can use my birth certificate instead, which I've got with me still.
Aside from that I got my photocard done today so I can buy my monthly train tickets.
I'm almost ready, six days to go!
Haven't posted in here for quite a while. Just lurking, but I feel I have something to share. I came back from vacation this monday and starting a new work routine. Now I work 50% (9.00 AM-14.00 PM) at The Game Assembly, still as level design teacher and 50% (14.15-18.00 PM) at my own studio. Over the course of 3,5 years I haven't worked on a daily basis on my own studio and I'm finally there, can't believe it. Earlier there was always another mail to read/write, a tweet to post/answer, spontaneous 2-4 hour meetings in the middle of the week et cetera, another hole in the budget for me to solve singlehandedly within 3-4 weeks with impending doom of being forced to fire our two fulltime programmers - but now that's over. Finally I can focus, well rested and DAY TIME. Always had the plan of dropping down to 50% with my teaching job but I didn't intend on it happening so soon. The trigger for this change was actually some kind of a breakdown, some six weeks ago, a sunday night, I just couldn't fall asleep due to massive stress, head was spinning, couldn't stand up because of the diziness. I guess my body finally gave me a serious response. I didn't go to work the following week and when I came back I had a serious talk with my boss. We concluded that my work situation didn't work out and I got to drop down. It was a weird experience to me, I think I remember myself being a lot more stressed out than that evening/night because of much more urgent and important matters but I guess it was about the longitude. It's not only that I want to vent this. I really just want to once again mention the pains of overtime and why you REALLY should listen to yourself. If it wasn't for the fact that I could escape my life for the full length of swedish summer vacation (4 weeks) I'm not sure what would've happend. I'm not sure I was close to 'burning out', but not being able to stand up because of the pressing thoughts in your head aren't good signs. Anyway, now I feel good and well rested after the vacation and I decided it was time I separate my home from work. I have uninstalled slack from my home pc, disconnected my workmail et cetera (I think you should too.) Still haven't figured what I'm gonna do with all this free mental space, but that's not really a problem. And that feels so fucking good to say.
Sucks that you had to go through that Stefan, but in the end it worked out alright. I completely support your removing work distractions from your home life as it is highly disruptive and stress inducing to be at home and still have your mind on work. I too learned this lesson (not quite as harsh as your version). It really does wonders to make the distinctions necessary for us to decompress.
As for what to do with your new found free time, I suggest taking up something that is relaxing to you. As an example, I cook to relax. It takes my mind completely off of the day's to-do lists and I focus solely on what's in front of me (delicious food). Not to mention it makes the wife very happy too (women love men who can cook). Stay away from anything that is actually related (in subject) to your work though. It would only help drive your mind back towards your work and potentially re-trigger your stress.
Quote from Sigma22 hours ago, Sigma said: Sucks that you had to go through that Stefan, but in the end it worked out alright. I completely support your removing work distractions from your home life as it is highly disruptive and stress inducing to be at home and still have your mind on work. I too learned this lesson (not quite as harsh as your version). It really does wonders to make the distinctions necessary for us to decompress.
As for what to do with your new found free time, I suggest taking up something that is relaxing to you. As an example, I cook to relax. It takes my mind completely off of the day's to-do lists and I focus solely on what's in front of me (delicious food). Not to mention it makes the wife very happy too (women love men who can cook). Stay away from anything that is actually related (in subject) to your work though. It would only help drive your mind back towards your work and potentially re-trigger your stress.
Thanks for the fine words! 
Yeah I think you're entirely right. I've decided to do some interior design in my appartment like buying some old stuff and refurbish them. You're not the first who warns me about re-triggers, I hope the structural difference, that I now only work daytime is enough to have it sorted. Gotta get that wifu thing sorted as well.
Serious stuff @Sjonsson, glad you managed to find a quick solution and I'm sure you will feel much more rewarded.
Definitely overtime is a killer, I always say that giving back time when company has downtime, doesn't really help because sustained overtime feel "longer" (the time it take to relax is much longer than the hours you will take back in downtime).
I didn't experience what you experienced but I have been this close to say "fuck you" to my boss, I would play Doom or music as loud as I could to make people around me aware I was angry, and went outside in the bin where we throw broken crockery to smash stuff up…
So I was thinking, before Steam I wasn't always paying for the games I wanted to play. But now, I'm consistenly paying for games that I will never play. That's an impressive business model you got there Valve.
Been eating healthy and working out for a week now, feels good. I have more energy even tho i started working hard after the summer vacation. I try to keep my mind focused on this instead of the shitty first half of the year. Damn women!
She finally seem to have stopped stalking me, and liking my posts and it feels good. I am on tinder and shit, occasionally i talk to someone interesting but once they find out i have kids almost full time on my own they stop replying. Sucks.
Altho talking to other women and working out sets my mind off the girl i still miss, and it gets me more motivated to work out. I will look so good i am the one dissing them. Best motivation so far for me haha.
I wish i lived in a bigger town, where the odds of meeting someone that isn't 10 years older or younger than me was actually possible. I have slowly started accepting my situation and that feels bad. My hope is getting fit and more attractive, if that fails, i am out of options really (since i cannot move). Anyway! One day maybe that someone special turns out living next door. Time for some dumbbells.
Had my first couple days at my new job, and my god. Fucking amazing.
Only downside is the trains, left at half six tonight and got hit with delays going home, took me nearly two hours when it usually takes one.
Quote from blackdogOn 07/08/2017 at 6:18 PM, blackdog said: I didn't experience what you experienced but I have been this close to say "fuck you" to my boss, I would play Doom or music as loud as I could to make people around me aware I was angry, and went outside in the bin where we throw broken crockery to smash stuff up…
> Playing Doom while being at work
> Complain about your boss
> ...
> Profit
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