Posts by Tisky

To be fair i was drunk christmas eve.. oh well. Im sorry im letting you guys down

I wrote "Merry Christmas" to her on christmas eve. And she said the same, nothing more than that. Felt kind of good even tho i was going to ignore. Im a bitch.

3 Days later i post a pizza on instagram that my kids and i made, and she wrote "That pizza looks good". And now we are talking again. What is happening. What have i done?!

Nooo Carrie Fisher , may the force be with you.

Stay alive, find love. Easy as pie.

Middle of a competative game, suddenly im kicked out into the menus? Click Re-Join match and nothing happens. So restart game quick, boom. Suspended. What tha fuck happened???

So, christmas eve here tomorrow. I don't think she will, but, if she writes merry x-mas or something, i should just not reply right? Right guys?

Lol! It is one for the movies i tell you. haha.

Always missed: MrH2o.

Hard truth.

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Lol Dux. Yeah im probably just grasping hope here. After 3 weeks of silence i wrote her and she told me it was for the best that we did not talk, even if it hurts so much for both me and her. She told me it was hard and painful (no not my penis). After that talk, it has been 4 weeks. I don't know why i keep hoping really. Im an idiot.

Ah what a year, in the summer we told each other in person, that we loved each other. That day nothing could get me down. Those days are over.

On christmas eve im gonna go get drunk with friends (the single and lonely ones of my friends), at the local pub. I guess it's a perfect time to enjoy a beer and have fun! Also, will probably be mostly single people there so that's good i guess! Maybe i will get that rebound haha.

Alot of wise words that make you think about it in another way. I feel that it is all over, but i have hope, inside my chest. I don't know why, but i keep thinking, that she'll come around, or, something will happen. I think that the hope have to die completely for me to move on, atleast that was the case with the mother of my children. 15 months of agony before i could let that go.

I know in my heart, she is the one, and she did not mean for this to happen at all. I mean, i was the one who contacted her and i bet she did not expect to hear from me again right? Dick move on my part. What an asshole i am, but a loving one!

Last few days i've been thinking about sending a merry x-mas message on x-mas eve, but i won't. I need to let it be now and let that hope in me slowly die, hopefully without running into her or her writing me a goddamned message, for that is when the hope grows huge again. I guess love finds a way,

As Nietzsche said, " There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness."

Just got Diamond!! Fuck it was good, especially since i climbed togehter with a friend who mains bastion.. .on every map.

Sigh, i guess you are right. Sucks balls to face it thats all.. =(

Cray cray, maybe. Or maybe she is hurting because she wants it but still have a hard time to leave her man (i mean be the bad guy when it comes to separate). I don't know.. Her man is rich and boring, and im a poor funny guy which she thinks is a don juan that sleeps with anything. Maybe i can't make her happy at all, and then it is easier to just leave it be.

Some days are easier than others, i have my ups and downs. I keep returning here when it is at the worst. Thinking it will go away. But most of the time i keep hoping to hear from her. I guess, if she is happy, i am sort of happy. That is what matters in the end right?

Haha, i felt bad after, so i guess its not my thing. I got up early saturday to get rid of some stuff i did not want to move to the next apartment, and when i got home i went to the store down my street. I almost slipped when i saw her car parked on my street, she lives in the town next to mine so she is rarely here. And more rarely on my street.

Anyway i walk into the store and buy tobacco, get home and load up the car with more shit to throw away. As i leave my parkinglot guess who is driving by. You guessed it.

I was thinkin of ignoring her, but as i am a weak man i smiled and waved at her. She smiled back and waved and damn it felt good. But i still kept thinking she was driving by that early to check if i had company haha. I don't know. It's driving me crazy i guess? Still i felt good.

The more i think about it the more i loved it, now i really want a Obi-Wan movie, what did he do during this time?

I loved it, was a nice ride from the start to the end, my friends were not as impressed but they aren't really Star Wars fans.

Yes, please tell us he is going to voice Doomfist. PUH PUH PUH POWER.

Gonna watch it tomorrow! HYPE!!

Small update:

So i delete all my social media, except snapchat. All ppl i have on snap are family and her, and i was thinking about deleting that too but i thought hey, why not play a little game? I started publishing snap stories of me and my days, with one little rule. In every story i am smiling! So i started of small, posting pics about me getting a new apartment, and how happy i am about it, then up to 2 days ago when i posted one of me in the bath (she and i used to bath together, wierd i know). And i wrote that i will miss having a bathtub at the new place, but it does'nt matter since taking a bath is not the same anymore (hint to her, it sucks without her).

After being cute 2 days ago, i followed up a snap yesterday, that apparantly pushed the right buttons. I posted a pic of me and wrote that i "overslept today, but its all good, after the rain comes the sun! Cleaned the place and ready for and awesome weekend! *smileyhappyface*".

Approx 10 minutes after seeing this she blocked me. Mission accomplished. Now i know she is jealous and thinks i found someone else.

I know, not very mature but it felt good.

Love theese holiday skins, pretty awesome cosmetics!! BUT!

I would love to see more "Serious" skins, like the ones from origins edition. Don't get me wrong, i love the Summer/halloween and winter skins but more skins that i can actually look cool in please.

Gotta play alot now, need them loot boxes.