Posts by Tisky

  • Overwatch

    I have 1 friend who refuses to play comp. The other friend who plays, only plays bastion. I mean , i try telling him nicely to learn other chars but this last time i raged. Now he has not played in two weeks. Whoops.

  • Chester bennington, dead.

    We can talk about it all we want, but i´ve been there. It is the heavy pressure on your chest, the anxiety, and all the stress of feeling trapped in a situation in life that you have no idea how to untangle that gets you there. After one year of feeling like my life is falling like a house of cards i began to think about it, because i could not take waking up like that every single day. I tried talking to professionals and when that did not help you kind of feel like "this is how it's gonna be from now on". You fail to see the world around you, because you are so busy with this fucking anxiety and stress from that. I never thought i would get to that point, my father commited suicide and i used to think that he was a fucking coward and a selfish bastard. Really. I was more angry than sad.

    Now on the other hand, i know how he must have felt, and i understand him even though i don't think he took the right way out i understand what drove him over the edge. He never told anyone about how he felt, i guess he was too proud. I only told my brother when i felt like shit, i guess men are proud? Stupid and proud. Anyhow, it is a disease as RaVaGe said. I luckily got past the point so i never took that step, because i found some light and got the anxiety to go away. But when you are in that bubble, it is like a viscious circle. You need help. So if anyone gets to that point, remember that there is always sunshine after the rain, even tho the rain might last for a long time. Just find the sun. Much love to you all.


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  • Chester bennington, dead.

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    Goosebumps

  • Chester bennington, dead.

    I have a Minutes to Midnight cd with autographs from the band, framed and everything. Lately i thought 'It used to mean so much to me, but now its more like 'meh'. Been thinking about that concert 2007, Chester went out into the crowd, stood on a chair and sang 'Crawling'. The arms from the crowd around him made it look like he was sinking into the crowd . Gives me goosebumps.

  • Chester bennington, dead.

    I met Linkin Park, 2007 in Stockholm , a meet and greet. Chester was a down to earth person that really made the concert special. The News of his death is gutting, i loved Linkin Parks old songs and i will miss him. The voice of him Screaming is amazing and god What a loss. People can say What they want but he was one of a kind.

  • What's going on with your life?

    Meanwhile, vacation is awesome, going to my home town tomorrow to meet some relatives, and on Friday i will go up to Stockholm for my brothers wedding! Im gonna be a groom so i am a bit nervous. Since my brother is the worlds worst Singer we had him record the Armageddon song and then i made a music video from the bachelor party with his song. It all ends with him sucking a shot from another guys belly-button. We are showing this at the wedding. Mohaha.

  • What's going on with your life?

    Quote from dux

    8 hours ago, dux said: You can take it a step further now and just block her. The stuff she is pulling is backfiring on her and just pissing you off. We all called that she one crazy mofo earlier. You're starting to see it for yourself now :)

    Yeah, feels immature to block people, not my style. I will try to ignore it and keep my shit private so she can't really see anything new anyways. A friend had a theory, that she wants me to talk to her first, since then, she can have it like it was before. Be with her family and then still have me. If she contacts me first on the other hand, she knows i won't accept to have things like they were. I think he is on to something :P haha

  • What's going on with your life?

    So this woman from my thread started liking pictures on my social media (again). Started to annoy me so i set my shit to private (again), i mean come on. Let me go if you don't want me, what's the point? Why stall me and show me attention? Because she is a woman and she knows that they make guys like me hopeful. Witches.

    Anyhow, a couple of hours after that she started liking my Facebook posts instead. So i set my future posts to private aswell .

    I cannot figure out why she wants to show me attention, it used to make me hopeful but now it makes me feel confused. She is messing with my head. I like to think of it as she wants to make sure she is on my mind for some fucked-up reason.

    So i go to the store, park my car and notice i parked almost next to her car. I keep running into that damn woman (as my sister and ex told me, it is oddly often). As i step out, i see her walking out from the store behind me (timing), i get eye contact, turn around and ignore. She was air. The minute walk into the store i felt so good. All the times ive seen her from the car, waving, making my knees shake because that what she does to me. I get spaghetti legs everytime, and i get home and i miss her again. Not this time, her tricks work no more! I walked tall, bought my shit and went home and enjoyed this feeling.

    I am sorry to bring this up but i was hoping for input on her behaviour, i want to hear i am right about her trying to linger in the back of my head. Because , that shit is not normal right?

  • What's going on with your life?

    Quote from Sprony

    On 7/15/2017 at 7:43 AM, Sprony said: But then she took the conversation in a direction I wasn't expecting and made me aware of something I never realized. She said that she was glad that she didn't interfere, that she quickly saw how loyal I am and how very well behaved and respectful I can be despite being involved with the 'bad' things. The real kicker came at the end though. She told me she was so proud of me. That despite being left alone at such a young age, with no guidance and basically growing up on the streets, I managed to sort everything out. She complimented me on my beautiful wife and child, my job and just really said that's she truly amazed at how far I've managed to come from nothing. That I really went the distance and won. Now that my friends, melted this frozen heart of mine.

    I can imagine how it felt. My granmother told me something similiar, that she could not understand how i got to be "a good kid" when i had such a shitty past with my parents. It felt (for me) like a push to keep doing what i am doing :) Keep going strong Sprony.