Posts by Minos

  • E3 2014

    It's free for developers, you just have to prove you work in the industry.


    I'm going too, could be cool to grab some beers after the show with Mapcore people

  • What's going on with your life?

    Quote from holiestcows

    Some genuine real talk has occurred in this thread. I just finished reading it all, I saw the thread when it was first made, but I had no idea it would turn into this. I feel for all you guys going through your issues and getting through them, especially you dux. I may be a new mapcore member of only a year but you guys are all incredibly kind towards each other its really swell. I personally am dealing with my own issues, I have grown as a level designer the past year working on BlackGold and Import, which is great, and I hope to be moving in November, but I still have confidence problems. I have an alright social life, but my living situation is my downfall. I never realized it really, im only 19, I turn 20 in two months, so maybe that could be why I never realized it or just because I grew up with it, but some of my friends have pointed it out. My entire life ive been in this situation thats out Dr Phil. My upbringing has been and still to this day is based around putting me down. My step father, who raised me, is essentially an adult bully. Lets say I would want to map today, get a little creative, then bam, some shit happens or whatever and im just dead with no will to do anything for the rest of the day, which in turn becomes a waste of a day. Sure I can move out and do whatever, but as it stands I have no where to go. So living my whole life like this ive grown accustomed to it, until just about a year ago, a good friend of mine, became really concerned for me, pointing out that the situation I live in is in fact unhealthy and is beginning to fuck me in my mental state. I look back and can realize, wow, I really have been affected by my upbringing, which really sucks. So yeah, im just dealing with that shit, and trying to move past it, and having the opportunity to move to CA this year will definitely be a move in the right direction, its just being able to last until then which is the hard part. (not that im going to kill my self, dont worry) So wrapping it up, you're all great people, everyone here has issues to deal with and I hope everyone including my self gets past them and lives a fulfilling life.


    I actually went through similar problems back in the days like most people here. Game dev is a very new profession and older people have no clue what the hell it is about. My mom was always bitching about how the other kids had good jobs already and all I did was staying at home wasting my time on stupid maps for stupid games. We had some pretty big arguments back then but instead of feeling down I always used that anger to map even harder so one day I could break into the industry and "prove her wrong". Today I know that all she wanted was for me to get out, get a job and live a happy life, but from her perspective making maps was a complete waste of time. I can't blame her though, she was raised in a small town where everyone was told to do whatever would bring money as a profession. "Don't be a fool following stupid dreams because you will end up under a bridge or something" was the mentality back there.


    The irony is that she has always been pretty unhappy with her career choice and had I followed her advice I would probably be in the same situation now, pushing my "kids" to study harder to get a good job that pays well and the cycle would go on forever lol


    I'm glad she did that though, one day I challenged myself to prove her wrong and used that as a motivation to work even harder

  • What have you purchased recently?

    A friend told me about a japanese book store close to Irvine and I went there this weekend... that place was like heaven for art books and just cool shit in general. Now I know where to spend my monies~


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    This has probably become my favorite art book ever. It's fucking trippy to see his drawings in a large format.


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    This is a super hard book to find apparently (I had never heard of it before). It contains art from Final Fantasy X, XI, XII, XIII and a bit of A Realm Reborn. Lots of great refs and inspiration on this one, totally worth the money. Would buy again A+++


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    Really cool book by a chinese artist. It's awesome to see how oriental heads think about art and the cool tricks they use for composition, storytelling etc...

  • WiiU


    Does that deal apply for the US too??

  • What's going on with your life?


    Jesus man...let us know if you need any help, I'm sure the core could give a helping hand to a fellow hurgbrotha in need~


    Also, Dux, if you are not happy with your life the worst thing you can do is to shut in and keep doing the same things over and over. I don't know you, but maybe that's exactly what's making the depression worse. I know it's hard as fuck for you to go out, but you need to force yourself and try it. Try different things until you find something that helps you get over your depression, it might be something really simple like getting a dog or a cat or making a new friend. Or you could learn modeling, if you didn't like 3ds max try Maya or even Zbrush... Just make shit and don't expect any results and you will get the hang of it eventually, I know several people much less talented than you artistically that are good at modeling.


    I have never been depressed but I was angry a few times in my life, specially when I was 19 or so. What helped me get over that anger and turn it into something productive was trying completely different activities than what I was doing at the time, like starting a business (I had a graphic design office with a friend for a few months), skateboarding, getting a girlfriend (it's not that hard, you just have to commit and actively look for one lol) and etc...


    When I got my first job I was shy, lazy and insecure as hell. I would have never looked for that job if it wasn't for my mom yelling and bitching about me all day long. The job was at an army recruitment center, asking people questions and filling forms on a goddamn typewriter all day. When I found out I was going do that I basically freaked out, there was no way I could work at a public place and talk to people I didn't know. My first day was fucking horrible, the "senior" dudes basically gave me a paper with really shitty instructions and took off, leaving me to figure out all that shit by myself. Anyways, after a few months of "manning up", I was completely able to impose myself and even tell dudes that were a lot bigger and older to shut the fuck up if they were being too roudy lmao.


    I'm pretty sure that if it wasn't for my mom basically dropping me at that place, I would still be extremely shy and stay at home fearing the outside world like I was at that time (I was 16 or so).


    I mean, I'm a nobody and my advice might be complete garbage, but at least that's what worked for me, but only now I realize it

  • What's going on with your life?

    Quote from (HP)

    rotfl who the fuck am I? Dr. Phil?


    just a burrito guy...


    I also quit smoking months ago Stepp. I don't miss it anymore but I do enjoy it occasionally with alcohol


    My life has been pretty good too. I've grown a lot as an artist in the past few months and I've been challenging myself daily to get better. I've been working out again (blizzard bootcamp ftw) and i fucking love it. I'm also always looking for new knowledge (in any subject really). Anything you learn can be applied in your life somehow.


    I wasn't like that though. If I go back 6 or 7 months, all I did was playing games and doing useless stuff. I kind of feel like I went through a "rebirth" period in the past months where I rediscovered long lost simple pleasures, like drawing, going out for a hike and enjoying nature, enjoying time with my wife, enjoying the place I live (i know this won't last forever), enjoying my cats, enjoying quality time with friends etc...


    I haven't completed much personal work in the past 2 years, in part because being a Blizzard artist brings a lot of pressure and that shit can totally get in the way if you let it (like I did). One big lesson I learned with all of this was to not give a crap if people judge me or not... and most importantly, I try real hard not to judge people anymore. I can already see very positive results thanks to that.


    I feel that all the stuff that happened in my life (good and bad) in the past months ultimately made me a much better person. I'm more focused at work now, I'm nicer to people (which in turn are nicer to me) and I enjoy life a lot more than I did before