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[Sentura]

i didnt even know there was something called a quarter life crisis, but i suppose i have that sort of thing right now. the whole philosophical thing comes up alot. i have changed my perception on death, which occupies my mind alot (no idea why), to some weird reanimation cycle resembling tabula rasa. i am not depressed though, i just have these weird/bad/black thoughts.

[clayman]

i didnt even know there was something called a quarter life crisis, but i suppose i have that sort of thing right now. the whole philosophical thing comes up alot. i have changed my perception on death, which occupies my mind alot (no idea why), to some weird reanimation cycle resembling tabula rasa. i am not depressed though, i just have these weird/bad/black thoughts.

i hear you man, same here dude.. life and death goes through my head every day, just like that... this video made me happy, bill hicks is a fucking hero:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BTzNLhxPzjo

[Taylor]

Because times starting to go past really fast now, and the realisation our best years are going to be over soon has hit us.

[FrieChamp]

What everyone else said - amazing thread - I think we've had one of those before looooong time ago, anyway, another one was way overdue and I just read through it in one sitting.

Really interesting to hear the stories behind the nicknames, sad sometimes (D3 I'm sending a PM your way, we'll get you back in shape, trust me ) but also funny (Hessi :"My advice: shit on the girl, focus on university." - classic! ). I love some of the details too and demonstratively give Tay a wink

I think most people have seen the thread in GID, so I won't bore you with more details about my life, but the mentioning of this "quarter life crisis" struck me too. I didn't even know something like this existed, but believe that it's something everybody needs to go through, maybe for most people on a smaller scale.

For each person comes the day, when you need to get off the rails your parents put you on and find your own way. For some of us this happens when you drop out of school at an age of 16 and for others it happens during the mid-, late-twenties when graduating from university. Or when you think "hey, maybe this isn't exactly what I want to do from now on and for the rest of my life", "maybe there is more out there", but that also bares the risk of always thinking that there is something or somebody better to find.

I've been going through something like this the past 6-12 months, where I needed to re-prioritize certain fundamental aspects of my lifestyle in terms of personal value: work, money, free time. What's more or most important? I don't know! But I think I made a good decision to unlock myself some more options, for the times when I think that certain aspects need more dedication than others, so I can shift priorities.

I still find myself torn between yuppi friends and a liberal way of thinking though and still don't exactly know what I want to be in 10-15 years. Talking to your parents has proven to be quite helpful to me, they have been through this themselves before after all and one thing I learnt from them is that you can't plan or foresee everything. Don't be careless but do what makes you happy and what seems like the best choice for you. Everything else will come when it's time

[clayman]

Because times starting to go past really fast now, and the realisation our best years are going to be over soon has hit us.

I beg to differ, the best times are yet to come, remember that, lifes got a tendence of suprizing

yeah FrieChamp, i totally agree..

heres the story behind Clayman

Some of you know the band InFlames, they made an album titled Clayman, with Davincis vitruvian man on the cover..

Back in school i was the kid everyone could fuck with, i took alot of shit for some time.. so i isolated myself and listened to hard rock untill my parents thought i was crazy.. i started painting seriouslly, all kinds of drawings, alot of them where sick so i throwed them away, felt like everything i wanted to come out of my heart ended up on those drawings..

Davinci talked about precision and research and mathematics. i took that serious. In flames sang about "the man made of clay", the pissed of person that does not exist, thats how i looked at it to.

Its all about perfection, and how i basiclly started beleving in it, because there is a universal law, the problem is we havent figured it out yet, and thats why we ignore it just like we ignored the first person to say that the world is round and not flat.. perfection dude cant get more perfect than that

I basiclly became a complicated person and that is that.

read the lyrics of the song clayman here http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Clayman-lyrics-In-Flames/46A1FDD96DF3208E48256BFB002452A3

[clayman]

I still find myself torn between yuppi friends and a liberal way of thinking though and still don't exactly know what I want to be in 10-15 years. Talking to your parents has proven to be quite helpful to me, they have been through this themselves before after all and one thing I learnt from them is that you can't plan or foresee everything. Don't be careless but do what makes you happy and what seems like the best choice for you. Everything else will come when it's time Smile

amen on that champ

[Defrag]

She then started by saying that I COULD stick with the two subjects, but only if I come into school everyday. Two lessons also means larger gaps of wait time, and possibly days without lessons, or only 1. I'm expected to stay in school for several hours until the day ends. It was like this the previous year which depressed me causing me to just go home during those free hours - much more convenient.

I had a similar problem at school, Quakis. In my sixth year I had quite a few gaps in my schedule (not full days or anything, but quite a few double hour gaps) and I'd often either not bother turning up for registration (if the gaps were before my first class) or I'd go home during the breaks if no-one else was around. I ended up getting threatened with being kicked out of sixth year; talk about a pain in the neck!

Is there no way to take more subjects or perhaps some lower subjects to flesh out your timetable? I ended up taking intermediate chemistry & games and sport as extras. I didn't actually give a shit about either of them (I possibly even failed them) but it gave me something to do instead of sitting around being bored. My main focus was CSYS computing which I did very well on. Actually, come to think of it, my whole sixth year was a waste of time other than CSYS computing...

[Quakis]

Well, I got my weekly lesson timetable today, and I only have 1 free time a day since that Travel & Tourism takes up quite a bit of blocks. Again not a subject I wanted but I'll see how it goes...

[D3ads]

In Flames were good once, but having seen them live at Wacken recently I honestly think they should call it a day!

I'm going to the job centre tomorrow to sign on again, it's not a case of wanting to, it's a case of needing to else I can't pay my rent..

Got a lot of content done for my project lately though, starting to shape up quite well, and hopefully you should be seeing a lot more of my work in the coming months.

[e-freak]

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Edited August 8, 2021 by e-freak

[Zacker]

Interesting topic to see on Mapcore! Good idea skdr:)

Personally my life has changed quite a lot over the last year including new city to live in, new job, new girlfriend, lots of new hobbies, etc.

Back in high school my life was pretty much just school and Sands of War. Leading a mod after school was quite a time demanding which left me in a constantly stressed state with no time to do anything else.

After high school I took several months off just to relax and play games and generally do nothing. That time felt really needed for me, when I look back on it it was some incredible boring and dull months though where everyone else moved on except for me.

Finally I got a job and what a job! My dreamjob as level designer at IOI:) Was quite a change to go from doing nothing to having to move and start at a new job within 14 days.

The time after moving was quite annoying, I spent all my energy at work so I was wasted when I got home. Furthermore I had no internet for a month which obviously also sucked ass. In addition to this I had very few friends over here so I did not really have anyone to hang out with.

Since then things has just become better and better:) I have begun to use my newfound sparetime to do all kinds of things that I enjoy but never had time for. I have been taking karate lessons for a good half year now and I really enjoy those.

I have been with my current girlfriend for around 3 months and we still love eachother most of the time. A downside is that she lives some hours away by train, so for the most time we only see each other in the weekends.

After this last weekend I have been kinda confused about my love life though. Thing is that I was at a party where I met a nice girl who I kinda ended up together with. We both had strong feelings for eachother, but as I had a girlfriend we just could not take it all the way, it was quite ackward really. So now I would actually really like to go further with this girl, but then again arises the problem that I have a girl already.

[FrieChamp]

I wish I had those kind of problems Zacker has..

[zaphod]

very interesting thread. It's amazing how similar everyone thinks we are to each other because of the common interests that brought us to mapcore, but we are all so different (and similar) in the other aspects of our lives.

My career has really slowed down in the last couple years, and a new direction feels like it has been a long time coming. My passions no longer line up with my job. I am not satisfied at all with work, so I am constantly creating things in my spare time. A friend of mine from work has gotten really interested with me on one of the projects and we have been spending a lot of time working on it. I have been considering stopping working and spending at least a year to try to build something I am passionate about and to try to make my own way for myself. I think it would make me a much happier person.

Outside of work or games stuff, things are pretty good. I have picked up tennis recently and have been playing a lot with friends. I was dating for a little while, and while it didn't end up amounting to much, it was good to reassure me that it's still an option when I feel like getting around to it. I have been reading more, and I'm going on a cruise with my family at the end of the month which I am really looking forward to.

[Pericolos0]

this is a cool thread! I read all your stories and I now no longer imagine you as your avatars but as real human beings .

I'm doing pretty good now. I have been living in Stockholm for little over a month now and had a really great time up to now, and I can only see it getting better in the future atm . I was pretty scared of actually going to live here and almost didnt go through with it, but I'm incredibly happy right now I made the step.

My life has changed alot over the last 2-3 years, I guess I did that quarter life crisis think aswel. 3 years back my life was alot different, I had been going to college for the first year but I didn't live in a dorm, but commuted several hours each day and lived at my stepdad's house who I had a pretty bad relationship with. I had pretty much zero social life then, I hardly had time to meet up with the few close friends I had at home, and because I lived far from college I hardly made any good friends there aswel. My confidence was at the lowest ever, I was the silent guy in the group. I spent my evenings in front of the computer, but I cant decide if thats a good or bad thing right now because its probably why I work in the games industry now.

So I decided to change all that, went to live in a dorm where I met some of the best friends I ever had, grew my hair long and started wearing better clothes and go out alot. A gradually became a more confident person, met alot of new people and started enjoying life more

The last year was pretty much the best year in my life, I felt at home at my dorm, went out alot to different places, started drawing again, had a few relationships (eventhough short and never too serious ), and generally trying to do whatever I can do better my life!

The last 2-3 months I was in belgium I had the best time of my life, it was hard having to leave that all behind but I realise the college days are over now and I have to move on, it feels kinda weird to have started a completely new life in sweden when I was having such a good time in belgium, but I don't regret the decision at all, living in sweden rules =)!

[dux]

One day, we should all meet up and go on a booze cruise~~~

I heart you guys.