How are you doing?

[clayman]

ok here we go.. right now working at grin, im 20 years old, so far ive had 2 nervous breakdowns, i have insomnia and dont get much sleep, writing a book, started smoking again, dont talk much to people, dont hang out with anyone, i just go home after work and write and paint shit...

I feel crazy sometimes, because all i do is paint and paint, i just think to much about everything, and the more you think you've solved something the more you realize you havent solved shit but rather the contrary..

no matter what, im trying to stay cool and focused, and most of all; positive.

but hey, life's just a ride ive come to realize, nothing really matters, fuck it all, what matters is what you have left inside of your self

One of these days I will turn my back on everything and move back to the place where i was born, where i really feel i belong. Im going to move there maybe in 20-30 years and never return. Just live a life without stress and all those things that i have to deal with that really isnt healthy for me, also, before i go insane..

thats me.. cheers

[dux]

I'm similar to you clayman, expect I've only had 1 breakdown. My answer, prescription drugs and pot.

[clayman]

haha been there, done that but thats not me... it feels like my nature is "want something done, do it your self", that kind of attitude. I mean, im at work constantlly and trying to "work it all off", but the more i do it, the more i se that really doesnt help, and my back is fucked up..

So... ive started meditating, thats no mumbo jumbo, trust me.. I get so relaxed before sleep its amazing.. but still, every morning i try to find reasons why to be happy, and ive found some.. i work on a kickass company with cool people, and i love what i do, i also had to work my ass of to manage. Im happy i guess, ive acomplished something many people cant even spell to. so, yeah positive thinking is a wounder

[dux]

Sounds like Grin is the place to be for screw cases like us

I should apply again

[Steppenwolf]

I think i had similar problems when i was in my early 20's and i know that a lot more people have. Could be a Quarter-life crisis. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quarter-life_crisis

When i was 22-24 i was often depressed, had problems with social relationships, did lots of alcohol and drugs. I also was thinking too much about the world like philosophical problems especialy which drived me crazy.

The last 3-4 years i feel a lot more stable, didnt had depression and i stopped to think too much about everything. Also i'm only a moderate alcohol drinker nowadays and dont do drugs except pot sometimes. Guess my Quarter-life crisis is over.

[dux]

Hows your ass btw stepp?

[Steppenwolf]

My ass is fine. Thanks for asking.

[dux]

[Minos]

I think i had similar problems when i was in my early 20's and i know that a lot more people have. Could be a Quarter-life crisis. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quarter-life_crisis

When i was 22-24 i was often depressed, had problems with social relationships, did lots of alcohol and drugs. I also was thinking too much about the world like philosophical problems especialy which drived me crazy.

The last 3-4 years i feel a lot more stable, didnt had depression and i stopped to think too much about everything. Also i'm only a moderate alcohol drinker nowadays and dont do drugs except pot sometimes. Guess my Quarter-life crisis is over.

hehe I know what you mean, I was unconciously driving myself into that lifestyle a while ago. I had just finished school, lost contact with my friends (aka lost all my social life), didn't manage to get the US visa (americans hate the latin americans ), failed to get accepted at uni and some other shit. And then I met my GF and everything is fine now. I just hope she won't break up with me, otherwise I'll probably try to destroy myself again

[dux]

Depressed.Core

[clayman]

decompression.core

[Section_Ei8ht]

From the sounds of it, a lot of people here are around the quarter-life crisis stage. I think mine ended a week ago

[Quakis]

[rant]

Today I had to see the head of 6th form about what to do in my final year. Well, I dropped Applied Science so that left me with Media Studies and Applied ICT. I can't have two lessons since 2 A Levels won't help me getting into Uni (which I've yet to decide on)

She then started by saying that I COULD stick with the two subjects, but only if I come into school everyday. Two lessons also means larger gaps of wait time, and possibly days without lessons, or only 1. I'm expected to stay in school for several hours until the day ends. It was like this the previous year which depressed me causing me to just go home during those free hours - much more convenient.

She then said I am being stubborn about the choices, since I'm not motivated to work with other subjects beside those two. I won't even try. And she said she recommends I do 3. The final option is I won't be able to come back.

A) If I don't go back, then I'll be nagged at by my parents to find work. It's not easy to find work, especially in this town - and I could get a group of people to prove that point but my parents don't get it.

B) She said I should take up, Travel and Tourism (with the lower year) which I didn't want. But what other choice do I have? It's not like I have to do anything since I never wanted it. I just agreed since I had enough of her fussing. I could "try" it for a few weeks and get back to her.

So another year of school, and parents that nag at me to find part time work. Another unmotivating year of crap. This is going to be fun.

:roll:

[-Stratesiz-]

Wow...

I'm doing just fine, trying to explore the world as much as I can before graduating. After I finish my master's thesis I intend to study a semester abroad in New Zealand I think, then work abroad for a 3-6 month internship period, hopefully in Singapore or a similar location, then study some Spanish in Puerto Rico or Costa Rica for a few months. After that I'll see what happens.

[st0lve]

So, never really seen this thread before now, I like it.

My life have actually been all good ever since I graduated from highschool (Norways answer to that) in June. I've found myself a girlfriend, I've almost finished my driving lessons, I've been skating a lot and right now I'm just working with my dad earning some money so that I can travel before I hit the army for 10 months in January.

After the army I'll maybe try to get into a game dev. og graphic design school, if not, I'll try to get a job somewhere