Tisky

Oh my oh my.. oh my.

Wohoo, in half Danish and half Swedish, and BOTH made it to WC!!! Fuck yes this will be an amazing summer! I will also cheer on for Iceland, such a small nation being in the WC is simply awesome. 

I went back to social media some days ago. Noticed that the woman from my thread, has gotten married now (officially). 
Weird, 6 months ago she told me she was single.

You guys were right all along, i know. I felt gutted finding out but at the same time, good.
Knowing she lied all along kind of helped to finally let it go. I guess it was something i needed to know to stop hoping.

I am a dreamer and i feel stupid having hoped for change so long, but as my history with women shows, im either one unlucky bastard or humans are assholes by nature

So, this will be the last of this, and im sorry for bothering you on this gaming-forum. Thank you for all the support, i will try to learn how to listen to it better.

End of saga.

Sweden vs Italy in playoff. So, guess we are out too. 

Sometimes you find comfort in the strangest things.

After leaving all social-media to avoid this woman, and getting into trouble with my so called friends, i felt pretty bummed and down. I have no problems being alone but last weeks were awful. Since the end of August i have only spoken to one friend, the last one i got now. Making new friends as a grown-up is hard.

Anyhow, my brother bought me Destiny 2 for Xbox One. Maybe he felt bad being invited to a thing with all our friends when i was not invited. I was really fucking down and sad. Destiny 2, looks stupid. 

Fuck it, i installed it and bingo. Hooked. It was something i needed to keep my head up. Thank you Bungie and thank you my bro. Now i can grind for gear and finish Nightfalls in a fireteam instead of sitting alone feeling sorry for myself. Much much needed, i recommend Destiny 2 and if you want to join a clan of two idiots, one drunk gamer and an indian coder that yells most of the time. Gimme a shout!

20 hours ago, RaVaGe said:

^ Protip.

Also, I would like to introduce you to;

THE HAMMER VISGROUP !!!!11!!

Tadam.

We actually used Quark (Quake army knife) for mapping , haha. I started using it for Quake 1 so i only learned Hammer in 2004 or so i think. 

Back in the days when my friend and i made maps for old-school CS and could not find the leak, we built a whole box around the map, lul. 

I got a Wii-U somewhere. Maybe i should pick this up 

Got this for Xbox One as a gift from my brother. I guess he did not want to play alone

So far i am enjoying it, loving the design and feel of the game but i keep feeling like i am a player following a scripted game with a simple path to follow. I thought it would be more sandbox! Maybe it will come

18 hours ago, blackdog said:

Wow, your bro got to keep the money?

Half of it

So i've been playing on lowest gfx settings so i could have 60 fps all the time. Changed to high and ultra, and man, the game is gorgeus. I had around 50-57 fps, almost playable, i did not not want to turn the settings down. 

15 hours ago, dux said:

It is

My brother imported one around 2003, looked like yours but red. Started pimping it and it was awesome, then he met his wife. Car was never finished. :/. Now it rusts in a garage somewhere since the guy in Belgium who bought it never came and picked it up.

23 hours ago, dux said:

Got the old crushed heart treatment from a girl. So driving around taking pictures of the only girl that doesn't give me BS. Developing a smoking habit again too, need to get that back in check soon.

 

 

Is that a sexy Nissan Skyline?

47 minutes ago, Corvus said:

Gotta play with a squad of 5 ppl that you know

No friends =/

4 hours ago, SotaPoika said:

What the fuck? If you throw, I throw. *picks Bastion and walks backwards to pit constantly*

Yeah, or as many games yesterday, two ppl start bitching , neither wants to repick, so ends up with one of them leaving the match or griefing. Feels like many ppl spend more time on writing/whining in-game than trying to win. 

I always try to repick or adapt, heal or tank. Shit, it is like im stuck with 12-year olds at rank 2900, and there is no real way on moving up except for hope. Hope wich fades away every game.

What tha fuck happened to this game. Ranked is full of complete retards and griefers. Teamplay is no more

Congratz !!

Yes i guess its my daughters that get me up from bed, and hope that maybe this day will be different you know. I do not have many options really, moving is out of the picture since i cannot move further away from the kids mother, and moving to Gothenburg (a city i really do not like), or closer to it feels like a downgrade. When i was younger, i had my family here, my brother, my friends, my woman. It's like all those bits and pieces have been lost, piece by piece, and my options are lost with them. Living in a small town in the middle of the woods has its perks when you have children. Safer you know. 

I had a house together with my ex and she decided to split when the 2008 financial crisis was at a worst. At that point i was guttet and just wantet to move on for the sake of my own mental health, so we sold the house with a loss. Today i got a loan for the rest of this house, wich makes me inable to take a loan for a new apartment. So, if i wanted to move, i would have to take a loan for a new apartment, since, we have taken in so many refugees there are basicly no apartments to get (not even in my town). Zero. You could get in line and wait 10 years for an apartment in a big city tho. 

So you see, my choices of changing my surroundings are close to zero, wich makes my options close to zero really. The thing that gets me is probably that i don't really know what i can do. I've had my hopes for the education im currently studying, but its a long shot and far away. I went up 07.00 today, on a saturday. I have no idea what im going to do for the rest of the day except some studies, wich makes me feel im wasting time in my life. This drives me crazy, my heart is telling me to find a way, make life better for you and your kids you know, but im not finding any answers or ways to do that. I cant sit around hoping for change.

When i was 15 i put down work making maps, mods and what not, i had dreams. I wanted to work for Valve or Blizzard, make games. Thats how i ended up here. Bing bang boom, im 34, and i feel that dreaming is actually nothing more than a dream. It used to be possible to do things. Everytime i climb up a step on that ladder i fall down two steps. Haha

18 minutes ago, Radu said:

@Tisky where do you work at?

Small advertising production firm

It's been a tough time lately. This year hasn't really been my year. 

Went out for beers with the few friends i had, they ended up being really weird and mean that evening. This one guy knows the girl i from my threads husband. And he kept talking about how he made a million a year and how he got a amazing car, etc etc. It was like he knew everything and wanted it to burn, just kept ranting. So, i ignore that and we start to talk business. I say i have an idea of how to improve the place i work at, if i would ever take over the company. Hypothetical bullshit talk over beer. Before i could even start explaining they told me it was a fucking stupid idea to take over and whenever i tried to tell them "well, let me explain.." i got interrupted so i got pissed and said "please let me finish". That's when all three told me i was being rude and if i did not stop they would leave. It was like they did not want me there. Stunned i just left, feeling pretty crappy really. So that was a month ago and i have not spoken to them since that. Kinda feels that the few friends i had left here are gone.

Also my childrens mother is trying to get the kids to move to her town, 2 hours by car away. It's a battle i did not want to fight again, but i guess i have no choice but to fight till my nails bleed. Without my daughters i got nothing left.

Car is breaking down slowly, money is running dry. It's like i am in a hole that i cant get out of no matter how hard i try. I really have a hard time to look at the future positive and with my chin up right now, hopefully, it all works out somehow.

Amazing work guys. some parts of it gives me Borderlands 2 vibes!

We need more of theese 80's songs!! Amazing

3 hours ago, dux said:

Women fuck up your life.

Amen to that.

-6 kilos, but, today its beers with friends. My firat day off from workout and healthy diet in a month. Fuck Im about to get drunk and have a awesome night, i can only Hope you guys will have an awesome night also!