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Just got Diamond!! Fuck it was good, especially since i climbed togehter with a friend who mains bastion.. .on every map.

Sigh, i guess you are right. Sucks balls to face it thats all.. =(

Cray cray, maybe. Or maybe she is hurting because she wants it but still have a hard time to leave her man (i mean be the bad guy when it comes to separate). I don't know.. Her man is rich and boring, and im a poor funny guy which she thinks is a don juan that sleeps with anything. Maybe i can't make her happy at all, and then it is easier to just leave it be. Some days are easier than others, i have my ups and downs. I keep returning here when it is at the worst. Thinking it will go away. But most of the time i keep hoping to hear from her. I guess, if she is happy, i am sort of happy. That is what matters in the end right?

Haha, i felt bad after, so i guess its not my thing. I got up early saturday to get rid of some stuff i did not want to move to the next apartment, and when i got home i went to the store down my street. I almost slipped when i saw her car parked on my street, she lives in the town next to mine so she is rarely here. And more rarely on my street. Anyway i walk into the store and buy tobacco, get home and load up the car with more shit to throw away. As i leave my parkinglot guess who is driving by. You guessed it. I was thinkin of ignoring her, but as i am a weak man i smiled and waved at her. She smiled back and waved and damn it felt good. But i still kept thinking she was driving by that early to check if i had company haha. I don't know. It's driving me crazy i guess? Still i felt good.

The more i think about it the more i loved it, now i really want a Obi-Wan movie, what did he do during this time?

I loved it, was a nice ride from the start to the end, my friends were not as impressed but they aren't really Star Wars fans.

Yes, please tell us he is going to voice Doomfist. PUH PUH PUH POWER.

Gonna watch it tomorrow! HYPE!!

Small update: So i delete all my social media, except snapchat. All ppl i have on snap are family and her, and i was thinking about deleting that too but i thought hey, why not play a little game? I started publishing snap stories of me and my days, with one little rule. In every story i am smiling! So i started of small, posting pics about me getting a new apartment, and how happy i am about it, then up to 2 days ago when i posted one of me in the bath (she and i used to bath together, wierd i know). And i wrote that i will miss having a bathtub at the new place, but it does'nt matter since taking a bath is not the same anymore (hint to her, it sucks without her). After being cute 2 days ago, i followed up a snap yesterday, that apparantly pushed the right buttons. I posted a pic of me and wrote that i "overslept today, but its all good, after the rain comes the sun! Cleaned the place and ready for and awesome weekend! *smileyhappyface*". Approx 10 minutes after seeing this she blocked me. Mission accomplished. Now i know she is jealous and thinks i found someone else. I know, not very mature but it felt good.

Love theese holiday skins, pretty awesome cosmetics!! BUT! I would love to see more "Serious" skins, like the ones from origins edition. Don't get me wrong, i love the Summer/halloween and winter skins but more skins that i can actually look cool in please. Gotta play alot now, need them loot boxes.

So i managed to work my way up from 2100 to 2900, wich is nice :). Too many Hanzos thinkin they are awesome yes.. Really excited for tomorrows christmas event! Show me what you got!

Fucking Todey AND Garfield both fucking sucked. Atleast Tom Holland looks like a geek but at the same time, is kind of cool and witty. Like Peter Parker. I think he was awesome in Civil War

Marvel (Disney) is in charge, and not Sony Apparantly, Tom Holland is an acrobat/dancer, and does alot of stunts himself! Hope this is true and we will se less CGI Spidey. In my opinion, he is just as perfect for the role as Downey Jr is as Tony Stark. Michael Keaton as a bad guy, i cannot wish for more.

Fuck Vulture looks awesome!

So what do you guys think of the trailer? I like it, hoping this will be THE, Spidey movie. <3

I have realised what a bitch i have been. Getting run over and thinking everything is my fault. Wow!

Haha Minos! So true! I actually loved the apartment i looked at yesterday, my daughters too. Closer to school and new painted walls + floors. I called the company that rent it and they told me it was mine if i wanted it! So i took it!! (Worth to mention, there are zero apartments availible in my city due to all the Syrian / Afghan refugees). So, i am finally feeling lucky as a motherf. Now i have alot of time to put into this move haha! Anyone wanna help, free beers! lol. Im feeling good, ,thanks

Wise words all of you, thanks for helping me seeing things in different perspectives. I've decided to close all social media ,since i keep viewing her profile. Actually saw her drive by (in the reflection of a window), yesterday. I was putting up some vinyl on windows close to her home. I pretended she was just another person driving by. Felt good! So bye bye Instagram and Facebook for a while, i got to bury that shit. I have started watching Walking Dead, play alot of Hearthstone / Overwatch. Anything to keep my busy. Even travelled to a friend 1 hour away to help him move to a house. Atleast i killed 6 hours of thinking to much! Today im going to see a new apartment, i hope its nice and that i get it. I kind of hate going in to my bedroom and sleep alot on the couch so it would be nice with something new and it is a better location for the kids, closer to school. I really don't want to meet another woman (right now), but recently many people have been telling me how i need to find someone, or that "they know a girl". It's like i have a sign on my face that says "IM DESPERATE". Wtf. I guess i usually am a "fun" guy. Telling alot of jokes and being happy, but it is hard, but i will come back

Thank you for the replies and wise words. Your posts have given me a perspective, im not alone, i guess. It is easy to get stuck in a "cocoon" as you said, Vorontsov. Most of my friends and family have moved away , since i live in a small town. It gets lonely and i get too much time to think. Im a thinker i guess, and i see now i have to keep myself busy, so i dont think, to much

I'm 33 years old today, but let's start from the beginning. Back in 2004, when i was 21. I met this girl, at a party. She was 16, 5 years younger than me. Immediately we get drawn to eachother and start writing on social media (back then MSN). I really liked this girl and we ended up doing it. Since she was that much younger i felt that it was wrong and kind of never really called her again. But back then i figured, she did not call me, so i guess it was bad sex or something. The same week my father commited suicide. So as you guess i was lost and confused, so everything with her just got pushed aside. I moved on 2 months later and started dating the mother of my two daughters. But somehow i kept thinking of that first girl, all the 8 years together with my childrens mother. I kept pushing theese thoughts of her aside, since, you know i was happy with the woman of my kids. Fast forward to 2012. January. I had bought a house with my girlfriend and we got engaged 2011. But one saturday in early January she tells me she wants to take a break. No reasons or anything. One month later, my best friend dies from an overdose, nobody knew he was taking theese drugs. The world got turned upside down and i tried to work out and focus on doing all household choirs to make her stay. All in vain, i moved out of the house in the fall and due to not being able to sell the house i had to move back in with her. 3 Months of abuse (from her side), telling me how i was'nt good and other things, along with her going away with friends partying all weekends i was crushed. Finally after 3 months we sold the house and i immideately moved into an apartment, trying to stay alive, trying to find strenght for my new life. At this point i felt like i had climbed a ladder to the top and fallen all the way down. It was around this time, my ex told me she was a lesbian. Yep, she does not enjoy the cock apparantly. I felt relieved, since that meant it was'nt on me. Always something right? She moves to a city 2,5 hours away so i have the kids on all weekdays except for the weekend. Between 2013 and the beginning of 2015 i was trying desperately to date women, one fail after another led to me sitting at home, feeling hopeless. A single dad with two kids, quite the catch? Am i right? So when i have given up all hope, i do what i have always wanted to do, contact the first love of my life. The one that got away. The girl in the beginning of this letter. She replies on Facebook and we start to talk memories, and about what really happened back then. Turns out she was deeply in love with me and angry because i never called. I explained everything about my dad and we laughed at how crazy it got and talked about what could have been. Turns out, she is Married, with two kids. Ouch. Well, always nice to talk right? After that night, she wrote me back the next day, and the next day. Every single day, all the free time we had, we talked. For 6 months. She was really loving and cute in her way of writing, but kept telling me i should go find a girl. So i thought yeah, she is right. The summer went and the fall came, i started dating a girl i met at the pub. I was not really intersted but it was the first girl i've actually dated in forever so i felt hope and deicded to tell the other girl about this. She clearly did not like it and explained to me how she suddenly was single. That put me in a tight spot and i could not decide what to do. I guess she wanted me, right? After breaking the contact with the girl from the pub we met at my place acouple of times, it was wonderful, until we had a fight and turns out she had sex with her man that night after partying. I said that shit happens and we went back to normal. It felt so good until one day. She came over to my place late at night and while we were hugging and talking my phone rang, i think that it is my mate, who wants a ride home from a party and take it up to look (i know, fail). It is that girl from the pub. FUCK. I swear to god i had no contact with her, and what follows is 6 months of back and forth with the love of my life, about how i am a lying bastard. The other times it was all good, but she was different. She would not believe me. After breaking contact with me 2 times she always wrote back, saying that she loves me. Until i had enough of her telling me mean stuff all the time and told her i had enough, since i really had not done anything wrong. I think that this might make her think about the whole thing and actually get back to me after some days, leaving it in the past. But nope. I broke after 3 weeks and wrote her, but she told me it is over. So here i am, writing this story on Mapcore. Since i have nobody to talk to about this thing. Her husband is my friends friend, so it all have been kept under. I am really dying inside and i feel so lost, im sorry for the wall of text but i need help on how to move on before i lose my sanity. It is like i have a ton of bricks on my chest all the time and nothing i used to enjoy is fun no more. Fuck my life. I wish there was a reverse button.

GLHF everyone.

I must say the new arcade mode, 1vs1 and 3vs3, is sooo much fun. Wow. Gj!!

Yeah, kinda wierd. My friends were like "oh he is joking. They are teasing us". And then we all sat "..........." :/

Yes. R.I.P Diablo 3. Nail in the damn coffin! Loved how Sombra hijacked the stream, seems like a fun hero, loving the new maps also! Hearthstone x-pansion seems nice, will buy for sure

What a day, first Sombra artwork leaked, then a female and male necromancer artwork. HYPE!! This means nothing but still it is hypetrain 2016.